I'm Scared to Tell You Guys This..

I bet you guys think this is a real secret huh??
lol.
TRICKED YOU!
eh.

Since North Carolina has this new law that says you can't get a tattoo until you turn eighteen and my mama won't let me get a tattoo until I turn eighteen I can only plan my tattoos out..lol.
and when I turn eighteen imma be Lil Wayne :|

okay..my first one is gonna be a butterfly on my wrist, the side that the palm is on, and it's gonna be in dark colors like black, dark green, and dark purple. And in white ink I'm gonna have my grandparents' initials [[mw; hm; cw; mm]] in it or on it somewhere.
I thought butterflies symbolized like death or something but on Wikianswers it says new life and old life...something like that.

my second one is gonna be the Japanese symbol for love or joy on my pelvic bone...close to my WHO-HA..lmao. I was gonna get my name, but that's stupid..so yeah.

my third one is gonna be a heart or something by my lung...prolly my left side and it's gonna have my mother's name on it because she's the air that I breath. Or I might get something inside the heart that symbolizes her instead of getting her name.

and my fourth one is gonna be the infinity sign..ha.
Me, Kaley, and Alex said that when we turn eighteen we were gonna all get the same or similar tattoos to symbolize our freindship. And yesterday Alex came up with the bright idea of infinity sign tattoos...at first I said I was gonna get our initials[[PAK]] inside of the sign but now that I think back on it..I'll just get the sign and leave it at that. Maybe on my foot or ankle or something.
that's all I got so far, I might think of more and if I do..I'll try to write a blog about it..but chyeah...let me know what you think of my ideas.

July 10, 2009
tat-tat-tatted up!!

I Hate You So Much Right Now.

This is the mo-fo that really got me twisted.


Ugh, I just can't take it any longer!!

This remedial butt computer gets viruses and threats like every day.
My Fire Fox crashes every minute.
Watching videos takes for ever.
It says I have like, low virtual memory.
I open up things and they just close.
It even took like, five minutes to even click on
NEW POST
in order to like, post this blog post.

My computer is even slower than Don Cornelius at the BET Awards.

I'm just like, done with this.
I'm done with Personal Computers.
So that is why..ahem..
I Want To Get A Mac.


At first, yeah I was like,
"No no no. Never will I have a Mac. I've always been with a PC so it will stay like that.."
I mean, everything I know is on PC.
Everything I have been taught was by a PC.
I mean, my dad was like, thee definition of a business man, he stayed working in some
type of office since I was wee little.
And I would go into those offices all day..
My job at the Fire Department even involves me working in a office with clerical work.

But the Mac Computers just amaze me.
It seems like, it just came out of no where, like from space.
Like, no viruses??
No threats??
No spyware??
Everything to edit video and do all this stuff with??
Like, there's not even a CPU aka The Tower for the computer.
Haha..ish is just insane!

Get ready all you Mac users, cause yall getting a new member!!
WOOOOOO!!!!

...&& the talk is on.

ummm...so my summer has been pretty boring thus far.
I don't know why I haven't been posting my blogs...eh.

I have to read this BIG book for Honors English III...it has twenty-five chapters and I'm on twenty-three...it's due on the fourteenth but I'm thinking about dropping the class so I'm not gonna read any more.
I might regret it later...but oh well..lmao.

yesterday was the fourth! Alex and I went down to Rock Hill, South Carolina to my family barbecue, it was pretty cool but we left before the started the fireworks and ish.
I loved my outfit..a lot.
it seems like every account I've ever made has been a fail...lol..nobody really talks to me on Myspace..but I use that to look at people's page and talk about them :|
I have an AIM and the only people I talk to are my cousin and Daveon =/ [[randommuch12]]
I'm on twitter..haha...and I have 16 followers, 15 of which are like unknown random people. [[p_wangg]]

I'm think about getting my hair cut into a style...so it can get healthier..I'm getting tired of my dead ends...it needs to be rejuvenated or something..eh.
I might post pictures later of my options at a later date.

I'm watching a comedy show right now, he's a ventriloquist, I think I wanna be one of those!

speaking of career paths, in middle school I wanted to be a Pediatrician..all the way up until ninth grade maybe.
Then I changed it to a Business women because I like the idea of wearing tight high-waisted skirts with high heels around an office..eh.
Then one day I saw something about Interior Design and I decided to make my minor, when I go to college, Interior Design...BUT I've noticed that I don't really care about the set up of a room or house, just as long as it's organized.
And I've came to the conclusion that my minor is gonna be Photography and my major will be Business Administration or somethng like that.

I was supposed to get a job this summer...I gave up on that dream when I filled out my first application...maybe some other year or something..lol.
maybe next year...maybe!

The other week I went to the beach...with Alex, Kaley, my mother, her boyfriend, my niece, my mom's friend [[>:|]], and a whole bunch of people that don't matter.
I'll post more of the pictures from the trip some other day..lol.

my niece has found a new dislike for me..it's actually funny though.
and she hates me being around my mom, talking to my mom, touching MY MOM...lol...and she's learned this new thing with screaming for every and any little thing.
punk.

my dermatologist is a butt! the wash and ish he gave me only made my skin oilier..eh..and the night stuff to dry my face out only dries out certain areas.
but I still use it.

the other day my brother called me. =]]
I hadn't talked to him in some years...AWKWARD!

yesterday while talking to Alex I actually said '...my boyfriend...' instead of just saying 'Jarel' which was also awkward.

I'm hot right about now.

um...I'm gonna try to really get up on my blogging ish cause Alex is out-shining me.

Jarel broke my keyboard sliddy thingy...it's all bent up and stuff cause he fell on it.
but he blamed me for breaking it.

oh yeah! we have twenty-one followers...I think it's thanks to Keisha...she gave us a shout out on her blogspot.
How cool is she, eh?? [[click this]]
Thank you personally Keisha...I think you're our best follower now...lol...just playing, but thanks!

my dad doesn't know I have a boyfriend yet...that makes me happy too because he might try to boss me around when I'm in North Carolina and he's all the way in California.

there is this fly caught in my blinds that hasn't died yet..ugh.

I've been watching a lot of USA and The Travel Channel as of late.

I can't wait until I graduate [[2011]] but then I can.
which brings me to my next point...we're like the only class who doesn't have a cool name or hand sign..ugh. makes me feel REAL good about my graduating class. =/

and now I'm done...lol.

July 5, 2009
just blabbing.

I'm Swift With The Pen!

This is probably my most GREATEST poem I have ever written in my entire life!!
This poem was for a school assignment and I just wanted to blow everybody elses in the class out of the marine.
So i'm texting it to people, seeing how they feel about it.
They [[the two of yall]] loved it, said it was deep.
Then when I read it aloud in class, Teach said it was great,
Girls was telling me they liked it..
Fellas said it was nicee.
My mama like it, my sister like it..
But the dxmn poetry contest I entered this poem in for didn't win!!!
*sigh*
But anywho, I love this poem, and hopefully yall will too..
Enjoy.
_______________________________________________________________________________________

I sit behind my desk gazed upon the waves that sit in front of me.
Wondering what my prince in disguise truly looks like to thee.
If I could have one wish, it would be just this,
I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is.

Turns around, I see face with a thousand watt smile and the deepest brown eyes.
Bam.
Catches my attention like a comet in the sky.

Foolish girls think why must God's vision of Man act like such Beast and ignore their Eve that sits behind them
Waiting.
But I've found my shining sun.
I will be yours, you will be mine, and we will be
ONE.

Take That D Like The Champions You Are!!

I believe that a music video can sometimes make or break an artist.
But seeing Drake's music video for "Best I Ever Had"
I don't know.
I mean, it's good..and it's different.
But i'm just like..hmmm.



So in the video, he's a women's basketball coach.
And he repeatedly lets the girls know that they are the best..
"Baby you the best..baby you the best..best i ever had..best i ever had.."
What that has to do with anything..beats me.
The two little "acting" scenes with Drake are semi funny.
I laughed.
Kind of loud actually.
So I guess the acting scenes are a way to show the audience like, this is also what Drake does.
Because this shocked me -> a lot of people didn't know that Drake was the little yellow boy that use to play up on Degrassi. -Ransom
Some boy in class one day was like,
"Who in here actually watches Degrassi though??"
[[He was saying it like, Degrassi was lame or some ish..]]
But I raised my hand up proudly.
Dxmn right.
And THEN, now that they found out Drake played on that show, everybody was tryna watch it.
You can miss me with that one.
If you didn't watch it before, why watch it now??
But yeah, I just don't GET this music video.
I am glad that it is different than the usual music video for first timers and up comers..
[[Example:: Cars, Booty Shakers, Strip Clubs, Patron, Rose, Nuvo, Money, Diamonds..etc]]
But I just.
Dont.
Get It.
Hight light of the video for me is at 3:13 that had a cameo of Trey Songz.
**whispers**
In a tight short sleeve shirt
I nearly cried when I saw Trey.
Haha..don't know why..but imma girl..i get emotional at those things.
But it sucks that like, everybody and they mama been done already heard this song.
Most know all the friggin' words.
And he just NOW puts out the music video.
A Little Late Aren't We??
And whoa, wait.
He STILL doesn't have an album out!!
This is mixtape So Far Gone material.
WHO YOU KNOW GOT AIRPLAY OFF OF A MIXTAPE MUSIC VIDEO?!
Nobodyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

What's that?!?!
Oh, it's just Drake taking over.
;)

-Eh, shout outies for Kanye's 'ol weird self for directing this video.