Torn

Torn

I'm torn between you and doing what's right
I'm torn between the present and the mischief of that night
I'm torn between us and what used to be
I'm torn between holding on with my heart on my sleeve
I'm tired of smiling for everyone and suppressing my cries
I'm torn between the truth and what I think are lies
I'm torn between my heart and just letting go
I'm torn between my feelings, but I can't let them show
I though we were doing good and now I see I was so wrong
Heck, I had JUST picked out OUR song
I would tell you guys the story but I don't want to get into that
But I will tell you guys I was acting like a brat...kinda
I'm torn between being hopeful and the reality that I know is yet to come
So I guess I'm just torn, torn in between the two
But this still doesn't let me know anything about you.



November 7, 2009
still staying in heartbreak hotel...

I will be posting a load of stuff either tomorrow [[depending on how much homework I have...and how lazy I'm being]] or later on this week.

I have a story about Halloween...and maybe pictures.
and I have a video that I'm sure you guys will love...but I have to learn how to convert it so I can upload it.
urg.
but yes...stay tuned..ha.

November 1, 2009
Time goes back...I write more blogs...psshh.

New CB Heat.

So Chris Brown's new song
"I Can Transform Ya"
has a music video out now..

And literally..for the whole 3 minutes and 52 seconds, I was like this..


Like..it just lookeded average...idk..
Dancing was coo though..
Maybe if they took out the white background and made it like into some green screen type stuff it might be hott..butttt...nooooooooooo...

And then like, Tyrese just popped up in the video at the end..for like no reason..why was he in there??
SMH

And is it just me or does like, every Chris Brown song that comes out, we automatically connect it to the Rihanna and Chris Brown brawl..

Like for example..
"I Can Transform Ya...yeahh..transform you into a Rihanna!!"
or
lol..i can't think of any other song that would work..

Anywayss..

Here's the video..

I am a Junior, Hear me ROAR!

I've been in school since August and I've yet to write a blog about it.
ha.

Last year my Honors English 2 teacher said that you aren't official into the next grade until you have your first semester credits.
but hell...I was a Junior on June 8th, 2009...when I walked out of school after that last test.
ha.
I think it was that day.
eh.

but yeah...this semester my classes are super easy, so I know next semester I'm gonna be in for some hard working.

1st block I have Spanish 2 with Mr. Callajas...and he loves me so I love that class..lmao.
2nd block I have Dance 1 with Ms. Kissman and she's young and nice, so the class is a blast.
3rd block I have Library Science with Mrs. Morgan...we're like Library Assistants or whatever and Mrs. Walker is always on our tails [[it's three of us]] about every little thing...ugh..but it's easy or whatever.
4th block I have AP Environment with Mrs. Ingles and all we do is take notes...so it's easy..just a lot of notes.

In December we have to put on a dance concert...I believe imma fail.
In May is the AP Exam and considering the fact that I do bad on the test I'm gonna probably fail the exam...blah.

over the summer I said on the first day of school I was gonna run into the building and yell 'I'M A JUNIOR' but me being Precious.....I didn't do it...I just walked into the school smiling..lmao.

Just found out this FRESHMAN wants to talk to me...lmao.
Story: I have second lunch and the table that is directly in front of mines is full of Freshman...whatever. So one day I get home and I see I have a friends request from someone in Salisbury. The picture is of a dude and he's in a suit but it's far back...in my head I'm like 'whatever...I'm not gonna talk to him anyway.'
But then I get a message from him and he's like 'Do you go to SHS' and I'm like 'yeah'; 'Do you have second lunch' I'm like 'yeah'; 'Do you sit at the third long table' I'm like :| 'yes...why?'; 'I was on Myspace and I thought I saw you' or some ish like that.
so I don't write him back...blah...he writes me again asking what my name is...mind you my screen name is 'Preh-Shis' and I have a whole fricken about me practically. But I tell him anyway and he tells me his name but I don't care because I'll probably never talk to him at school. [[no i'm not mean]]
Couple of days late...I'm in third block and a class is in there. This girl name Muh-Kay-Luh comes up to me and ask me if I could give my number to her to give it to a dude named Devon. And even though I had just had my phone out I say I don't have a number because I don't play that. ugh. If YOU want to talk to me YOU come up to me YOURSELF and ask me for my number. So she writes his number in my binder..whatever.
Then the next day I'm coming out of Dance and this girl named Samantha asks me about Devon and I just look at her or whatever and the next day she asks me something about him again. Then she finally asks 'Will you go with a Freshman?' and I'm like 'uh...no.'
ha.
so I guess that's over.

but really...what I look like being a junior going with a freshman.
I'm on my senior project and he don't even got an idea of what he writing about...lmao.
[[what does that have to do with anything...I have no clue]]

but yes...one more year of school and then I'm off to college.
I'm thinking UNCG...maybe...I have to look at more colleges.

I'll be taking senior pictures next summer...taking the SATs and ACTs soon...already took the PSATs last year and bombed..lmao.

I got accepting into the National Honor's Society....all my hard work is actually paying off..haha.
I've joined Junior Civitan...only so it would look good on my NHS application.
I'm thinking about playing a sport...but that will probably remain a thought.
this is a big year for me...in so many ways..hehe.


October 11, 2009
&& yes I'm roaring loudly.

Can I Have Your Number??

Okay so scratch out my idea of wanting the Touch Pro 2 from HTC..

Me, Precious, Kaley, and Tierra went to the Verizon Store and they had just the Touch Pro there and that ishhh...

UGHHHHH!!!!!

Lol..it was like sooo slow. It was just whack.

And I'm not even coming off Sprint anywayss..yupp..still sticking with it..
Me and My mama was talking to some Sprint Lady online...Deborah M was her name..
And she put us on this other plan that's good for our money and we were all eligible for upgrades on all our phones so yeahh..
Now when it comes to stuff like this..
phones, cars, computers, cameras, big purchases like that..
i review the HELL out of them..
i'm watching YouTube videos of them..i'm reading customer reviews, i'm seeing any and everything that gotta do with that item..
So I had my eyes on
The Samsung Exclaim
The Rumor 2
Palm Pre
Some type of Black Berry

And then just yesterday, I went to the Sprint Store to actually go mess with these phones..and may I add..
The cases that some of the phones are in, are sooo good for making beats and stuff..lol..
Any Whore.
Here goes my reviews..=)

Palm Pre
This phones feels good in the hands.
It's touchscreen and a QWERTY keyboard and the screen resolution is reall pretty..
But I found it realll complicated.
And it was boring looking.
Like, you can have multiple stuff open at once and you can switch through them but I couldn't figure out how to exit the whole thing, ya know??
So this one is a
MISS.

LG Rumor 2
Now this phone is like..idk..
First it was just the Rumor.
Then the upgrade of the Rumor would be the Rant..
And I guess the upgrade from the Rant is the Rumor 2..
????
This phone is basically just like the first Rumor..which I have..
So I was like, why buy like a second version of the phone I have already??
AND RUMORS SUCK!!
So this one is a
MISS.

Samsung Exclaim
As you can see, this phones slides up and it slides to the side..
The screen is big.
Buttons are good..phone feels good..internet is good..
I like the interface, i like the colors..
It's a really nice phone..
Only bad thing I guess would be that it's pretty big.
But not that much..it's just really thick..
JUST LIKE I LIKE 'EM..
Lol..but this phone is a good to go..
Ordering this ish on Tuesday..or Wednesday..
=)

Honorable Mentions::

Samsung Reclaim
This is like Sprint's Go Green Phone..
The box it comes in is recyclable..
There's no paper manual.
The phone it's self is made out of natural materials or something like that..
I just didn't like this one..even though the color and stuff would of match my iPod if I did buy it..

HTC Snap
I kinda liked this phone when I was playing with it in the store..
But it reminded me wayy to much of this other phone that my teacher had..
And it seemed boring..
Only good thing was that it played YouTube videos like in a snap..
EDIT:: I didn't even mean to put snap in there and the phone is called the HTC Snap..lol..that was on total accident..and i just saw it..

BlackBerry Bold
I liked this just cause it was a BlackBerry..
But it had like too many apps or stuff on it or whatever..
AND THEY WEREN'T LABELED..
Lol..like..you had to go across an icon and wait for the text to say whatever it was you was bout to click on..
But it looks sexy though..but i aint want it..

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"I wave hey to my haterss.....but they not....my hatersss...???" - Alex