"I Wanna Thank My Mama..."

I should be posting this tomorrow but I just couldn't wait so imma do it right now.
Tomorrow is my mama's birthday.
WADDUP MAMA!!
And like, for her past birthdays I probably just gave her a card..heck..my sister probably bought the card and I signed my name..smh..
But this year things have changed!
So i got this idea that I would actually make her something..
make her a paper flower bouquet..
She's all into that crafty stuff..back in the day she use to paint and make baby clothes and sell them and she would draw..all this artsty fartsy stuff..

Aint that ish cute?!
It was pretty easy too.
Like the big pink one that stands out right there..for those flowers you just trace your hand to make that..
And then the others are out of tissue paper..


I'll add more to this post tomorrow once she sees these..

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THROW AWAYSSSSS.


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"Dang Mama...you getting olllldddd asssss helllllll..." - Alex

Like To Hear A Story, Here It Go..

So my mama went to the beach this weekend..
And oooohhhh child when I tell you I got into some mischief while she was gone..lol..

Okay..so first day she was gone..it was normal.
Now, there was this fly right, that was just buggin me and just wanted to stay in my room..
I thought I killed it.
I go into my itty bitty bathroom, brushing my hair..and I see this fly and I'm ticked off cause i coulda
SWORN
i just killed this fly five minutes ago.
So only thing I'm thinking is..
"Fly is right there..brush is in my hand..BAM!!"
But along with that BAM came a CRASH and i busted my light fixture with my hair brush..
I even cut my toe from that glass stuff from the light..
And I still didn't even kill that fly..

Since my mama was away, she couldn't cook for me and there was nothing in the kitchen but some Ramen Noodles and I had already had that like, twice already and I was getting tired of it..
So I wanted to go out and get something to eat..
So me and Kaley went out to this mexican place in Concord calling On The Border..
Or is it OFF The Border??
I don't know..just know that food be off thee Cadena..
And it's just something bout mexican food that bring out a different side of me..
Like, minus the toots and poots, I just start acting reall loopy off of some mexican food..
So when me and Kaley leave the place and we walking back to the car, the restaurant is playing salsa music outside so i'm salsa-ing outside and junk..
Like, I probably two stepped for fifteen minutes or more and Kaley was getting aggravated..lol..
Then I get in the car and i'm tryna find my car key right to put in the ignition..
But I just don't see the car key anywhere on my key chain..
Kaley think I'm playing but I was sooo friggin' serious..
Haha..so i bomb rush back into the restaurant and look in the seat and it's not there..
But then the bus boy stops us and gives me my key..
Woo.
This gone sound super duper dumb but I kinda wished that I wouldn't have found the car key so I could have stayed there and had no way home and had a more interesting story..

And I just told my mama all of this once she got back from the beach..umm..she just
tsked
and that was it..lol..

CrazyCrazyCrazy.

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And I don't care what nobody say,
The Game is a good show..lol..
Tia or Tamera Mowery can 'sho act her tail off..

Somewhat My Cure...

OMFG.
I have never ever ever ever been sooooooo bored in my entire life.
It's a Friday night..
Got no job.
No gas.
No moneys.
I don't even got nobody to hang out with tonight...no one.
No one is hitting me up on Myspace..
My phone aint ringing..
NADA.
Like, I'm at the point where I'm texting people that I hate to text in the first place..
I just need to hear my phone ring back to back..like it's sooo dead right now..
So when times like these happen..I go to YouTube and try to find some good funny videos..
But that usually fails and I just go for music videos and sing a long with them..
I go for the videos that come with lyrics and it's kinda like Karaoke and I grab my remote control and sing into that ishh like crazyy...
But girllllll, when I tell you..some good ones popped up today..

THROW BACKS!!!


[[Who knew Avant danced??]]


[[I remember having this song on one of my mixed cds when I was like in the fifth grade and I would play this song day and night and walk around my room like I was performing..lol..]]











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I need to update the iPod QUICK.

I Like My Short Stubs, Okay?!

If you a female..this may go for some males too..
But we all have a nail story of our own..
and here is mine..

So like a couple of days ago, I went to go get my toe nails done..
But I don't have a certain place where I get my nails done at..
It's like I've been to every nail place where I live at..

But anyways..a couple of days ago I wanted to go get my toe nails done..
So I head over to this one place and I walk in and is like..
"How much is yalls pedicures??"
And he's like,
"Twenty-three"
I had only brought a twenty dollar bill so i'm like, fxck..
"Ohh okay. Well how much is it just to get them painted??"
He's like..
"Twenty-three"
WTF.
No sir..no sir..
How you gone charge twenty three for a pedicure and then twenty three to just have them bishes painted?!?
RIP TO THE MOTHER LUVIN' OFF.
So i'm like..
Pshh..kick rocks..

Then I go over to this other place that's like right beside the first one..haha..
And I've been there before but the lady doing my finger nails that time kinda creeped me out..
She just kept looking at me..and I would probably look at her once and then turn my head to look in a mirror or something..
And i get like clowned everytime I go to get my nails done cause I don't have long fingernails and my hands are small..i guess..
and all the time the ladies will come up to me being like..
"Ooohhh..yo nail so short..you don want 'cryclics?? No want 'crylics??"
Ugh..if I wanted them I would have asked for them..lol..
Anyways..back to my toes..
they say they do pedicures for twenty dollars..again i'm like, fxck..
Lol..cause I really didn't wanna have to spend all twenty bones on getting my toes done..
So I sit in the massaging chairs and I did not like this one..
This one was aggressive and rough as hell..
And the type of shirt I was wearing was like real low cut and the way my undershirt was added more oomph to my chest region..so basically my chee-chee's was literally
OUT THERE.
And from the movement of the massage chair..they kept moving and ishh..
WHILE THIS LADY HAS A STARING PROBLEM..
Haha..so i turn the massage chair off..
And then like, you know how in the part of the pedicure they start taking that brush to your foot??
Like, that ish feels soo good..but I don't wanna be tryna to laugh or something cause it tickles..
So my facial expressions when that happens is like me biting my lip and closing my eyes..lol..
Which I guess could come off pretty sexual..
And it's like she was scrubbing my feet longer than usual..smh..

Ahhh..it was just soo creepy..lol..

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"Oohh girl what you mixed with?? White and Whiter.." - Alex.

My Rules On Phoness..

Lately, the people that have my number and the way they act with it has been driving me insane!!
So here i have made up a list of certain rules that you should not do when using a phone..





1) Yeah I may have messed up and gave you my number instead of taking yours..
but when you text me and keep texting me and I don't ever reply back...
Please..give up!
That is not cute, Boo-Boo..

2) Remember back in the home phone using days where it was considered rude to call after like nine or ten o'clock??
Shoot, same goes for me and my cell phone..
Do not call me at a late time..and don't keep calling at a late time if i aint answer the first time..
Like last night..the dude from Rule Number One called me last night..
AT ONE O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING.
Haha..like dude.
Who do you think I am??
I'm a white sixteen year old girl..
I don't party hard and I don't stay out at late hours of the night..
AND I DON'T EVEN LIKE YOU!!
Why call me at one o'clock exactly??
SMH.

3) If you texting me, and say you wanna call me on the phone and talk to me..and I tell you that I don't wanna talk on the phone..
Don't keep trying to get me to talk to you on the phone..

4) Don't send me pictures of things that I really don't care about..
I don't care how big your wing wang is..
And I don't care about seeing your birdchest..
Lol..just don't send me them type of pictures..
[[If i'm not interested in you..if i am though..pshh..send them thangs quick..=)..]]

5) Ugh..this should have been number one but it's going here..
This gets on my nerves!!!
Grr..
You know when you be texting somebody when you tryna plan stuff out..like for things to do??
And the person will reply back with an
"okay"
and that's it??
Or like, you give them some details on something like..for example..
You planning on going to see a movie so you text whoever and is like..
"The movie times are 8:35 and 9:55.."
And they'll reply back with an
"okay"
Like..haha..nooooo don't do that..
Text me back with what time you wanna go to the movies..duhh..

There's probably more to this but I can't remember..
But watch something happens today or tomorrow that will tick me off..hmmm..

"I Don't Want You But Then Again..."

Just when I think I'm starting to like mature and stuff..i still got the mind and attitude of a little kidd..
Confused??
Let me explain the situation.

Remember a couple of months ago I stated that I wanted a boyfriend..
didn't need one..
but wanted one..

Okay..soo during the summer vacation I met someone..
Online but still..lol..whatever..
Oh yeahh..he's my long distance lover with the Gatorade Bottle..yeahh..him..
But I just know that we can't ever be together..
and that ish hurts, Cuh.
Now since school has started, I'm seeing more dude and stuff right..
But the one that I have had my eye on since Freshman Year is finally in one of my classes and he starts talking to me..

"Do people be askin u if u go wit me??" - Him
"Yeahh. All the time. Do they be asking you??" - Me
"Yea i be wantin to say yea wat u be sayin??" - Him
"I be saying no." - Me
"Wen am i gone get to say yea??" - Him
"What you mean?? You wanna go out with me??" - Me
"Why wouldn't I?? Da question is do u want 2??" - Him
"I gotta see. I like you but i'm not sure i want a relationship just yet.." - Me
"I mean dats cool wit me i feel ya.." - Him

=/

Like..I don't know whats wrong with me.
It's like..I want a boyfriend, right..
But when I get the opportunity, I just, don't do nothing with it..
Like, if Long Distance Lover was to ask me to be with him..i'd say yes in a heartbeat..
But now this dude that goes to my school asks me and I say no..well..i say i'll think about it..
It's like, I don't want a boyfriend that goes to my school..
It's not like imma cheat or anything and don't want him to find out..
I just don't like dealing with people asking me if that's my boyfriend..
And if i just talk to another dude, people will think i'm cheating or something..
I don't know.
But if i really liked Dude, then all this stuff wouldn't matter, right??

I don't know..but i gotta movie date with him tomorrow night..so we'll see how things turn out..

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This probably doesn't have anything to do with this post but I found it interesting..
and creepy..

The past guys that I've had something with like..the dudes that really stood out to me in a way..
all their names start with a "J"
J***N
J**H
J*****E
J****Y
J**N

CRAZY.

Just A Post With A Bunch Of Words&&Videos.

I'm trying sooo hard to not talk about the VMA's cause that's what every blogger is doing right now.
Not tryna throw shade..it just aint my cup-o-tea..
And I don't think I do reviews all that good anywayss..lol.
But Kanye..that dude right there..
Hmmmm.
I'm probably your only white fan still cause I could give two middle fingers about Taylor Swift..
I don't like her.
And Beyonce 'ol old self tryna be Super Woman and be a peace giver or some ishh..
And I don't like Alicia Keys..never have and never will..
Haha..funny thing on Twitter that this one guy said..
"Alicia Keys just look clean. It look like her pussy taste like raspberry tea and fresh baked cookies.."
Haha..dude.
Yo, Twitter make every awards show or something big on TV just more funner..
Cause it's like, watching it in a room with a whole bunch of people..
Ugh..I just said I wasn't gone get into this VMA stuff..so let's get back on track..

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I LOVE THIS DUDE!!!
I just want our private parts to touch..
JUST ONCE.
Hmmmm-mmmmmm.



He is just too fine..
I think if I ever see him in person, I'd cry.
Dead Serious.
I was bout to cry when I first saw this music video..

OTHER MUSIC VIDEOS THAT I LIKEY..



RANGERSSSS!!!
=)



I aint ever heard this song in my life..now there's a video for it??
Really??



I wanna hate her, but I can't...she's fly.



This song has been playing nonstop.
It's playing in my car..it's on tv..it's everywhere..i love this ishh..



I'm glad this type of music is on the map.
I love California too..I just hate the weather there..totally different than North Carolina weather..
I remember my face was soo friggin' dry from being in Cali..ughh..
but for the people down here who on that Cali style harder than ah crease in some Dickies..
Kill. Yo. Self.
"This aint Cali, cuh.."

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Remember my Trey Songz READY Cd package thingy??

Well I got the poster a couple days ago.
But Atlantic Records be on some ol dummy ishh..
They first send out edited copies of the cd..
Now this.

This the tube that the poster came in right..
Looks pretty big, huh..

This is how "big" that poster is..
That thang is little..
That little poster in that big package..
SMH.
I'm suppose to be getting a fan booklet thingy next..
Watch that thing probably just got
"exclusive"
pictures from like Google that everybody done already seen..

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Me and the crew are in talks of going to this Trey Songz concert in October..
Everybody just need to get their money and I need to find a fourth friend so we can get this special package deal..

And oh.
I got an interview with Sears next Wednesday..
If I get the job..I'm deff not gone try and do this..



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Gah, this post feels like it's soo long..
And I didn't even really talk about nothing..geesh..

My life..

is a mess right now.
not so much but it kinda is.
I have mixed up emotions, a whole lot of problems, and I'm on an emotional roller-coaster.

and like...I want to tell someone, but I can't because I don't want people to be all in my business.
I can be happy for a good two hours and then go to not talking to anyone.

it's not because I want attention and I'm not bipolar.
ugh.

the littlest things are starting to get on my nerves...not really the littlest things and they aren't just starting to bug me, but now it irks me to the tenth power.

I asked my mom if our health insurance paid for therapy, but I guess she thought I was joking so she didn't check.
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I don't feel like being bothered with anyone...but I have to be.

I have to go to school everyday and fake happy, actually be happy, or not be happy and everyone is hounding me asking me what's wrong.
Then I have to come home and tend to my niece and ish and when my mom comes home I can't really tell her anything because I don't want her to be in my personal problems...I don't want to let her in.

I wish this all would have happened during the summer because then I could choose to not be around anyone...I could just stay locked up in my room and actually not be bothered.

I guess it's the cost of being a teenager. And I'm gonna tell myself that all teenagers go through this because I don't want to feel any worse.


I didn't feel like opening PSPX2..so deal with it not having a watermark and ish.

I won't be writing blogs for a while because I REALLY need some time to myself and I don't need to be worrying about blogging along with all my other problems.

So the Butta portion of this blog is on HIATUS for a little while.

And I told myself before I wrote this blog that I wasn't going to apologize for my behavior...but I'm sorry to everyone that I've been acting all snobby with.
But you guys have to understand that I'm not always gonna be all happy-go-lucky...I handle my problems differently and if I don't want to talk about it...then don't try and make me.
but yeah...I'm sorry for my behavior.

September 11, 2009
I just need...space.

"KAL ME = Cutest Ish In The World."

Please please please..
Watch this video.

There's like, nobody on this Earth who has never felt like this or been through this same predicament..

Cause shoot, I know I have.

What It Do.

Do I got an update for yall or what.

Let's start off with the bad so I can end with some good.

I've been a bad friend lately..not gone lie.
One seems to be taking this harder than the other..
But I still love her.
I'M SORRY.
[[And yes i'm talking in code..=P..]]

Remember the Ready Cd??
That ish is still fiyah but they sent out edited versions...=/
Yeahh, the corporate people thought that if they send out edited ones, that people will go out and get another copy..
HA.
Nope not me.

My sister, her boyfriend, and me went to a Lil Wayne concert a weekend ago or something.
This is something bad cause I kept getting lost so we missed a lot of the concert.
We missed Jeremih..ughh..my baby.
Pretty Ricky was there..missed they suspect selves.
Soulja Boy performed..eh.
And I think Young Jeezy was there..but i aint care bout him.
But we did make it in time for all of Lil Wayne's performance..
He brought out Tyga and Nicki Minaj so I was happy I saw those..=)
but still bad cause i didn't get to see Jeremih.
And crazy thing is, at a Wayne concert, there is soooo many white people.
I heard groups of white ladies all in my hear screaming
"HE IS SOO EFFIN SEXY..OMG.."
Couples was just making out all in front of me.
I had all types of chemicals and ish being blown in my face.
Swear it was like some Wood Stock type stuff..lol.
And it was outside so yeahhh.

Now onto some good.

Yall remember when I had a post about Donell Jones and I was talking bout how I wrote him on Myspace and he read it..??
Okay so in the message, I had told him that he should come back and make more music.
I go onto his Myspace Page a couple of weeks ago and I see that he got some new music on there.
I secretly think it's because of my message and I inspired him..but aye..
Then he also has a Twitter.
I'm following him and I be wanting to start a convo with him or something..
But I don't want him to go to jail..
And I'm afraid he will know who I am and like, think I'm really stalking him or something..
And that's not a good look.

Haha..I think that was my only good thing..hmmm..

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"I wanna make a porno one day.." - Demetrius
"What you gone do??" - Alex
"Uhh. Fxck.." - Demetrius.

Gir, You Is A Mess..

I usually thought I was like thee only one who didn't have pet peeves.
Cause I don't really consider stuff pet peeves.
I gets gutta with it and just say that certain ish gets on my nerves.
But one thing that tops them all..

Issssssss.

FEMALES WHO COME OUT THE HOUSE....
BUSTED.

Yall know what I'm talking bout.

You always seeing some kind of female with her hair still wrapped..
sweat pants..
chinese slipperss.
Just ugh..looking a mess!!

I mean, we are ladies.
We are basically expected to be pretty and smell good and look nice..
Or in dude terminology..

To show off that a$$ and tiddays.

Haha..and i hardly doubt you can do all that with your edges sticking up and out and a big 'ol sweat shirt on
that goes past your knees.

And one thing that errked me to write this blog is I saw this girl pictures on Myspace.
Her and her friends went out to Applebee's it looks like,
This girl had on like a basketball shirt with cut off sleeves.
I don't know what bottoms she was wearing.
And her hair in a
MESSY
pony tail.
Like...really??
You come out to Applebee's like that???
All your little friends was dressed nice and ishh..why couldn't you!?!?!

UGH.

And I know I know..
We girls be having our off days some dayss..
Naw.
Eff That.
You get up and put on a clean shirt and some nice jeans..
brush your hair and make it look presentable
before you step a toe out that house.

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Yeahh..she was like the worst I could Google..
Don't do what she did.
And I think she wore this out to a party..

MAJOR FAIL.

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You've Changed.

You've Changed

You've changed,
and I don't know what to do.
You've changed,
I miss the old you.
You've changed,
and it wasn't for the better.
You've changed,
to think I wanted this forever.
You've changed,
and I'm not going to lie.
You've changed,
and I've determined the bad guy.
You've changed,
I hope it's just temporary.
You've changed,
sometimes you treat like I'm just some random Larry.
You've changed,
Sometimes I just want to say eff it.
You've changed,
but I'm not gonna give up, I won't quit
You've changed,
and I'm glad I said what I had to say.
You've changed,
just don't change again today.

I'm Ready..Is You Ready??

I have been waiting for forever and a day for this!!
My Trey Songz READY album came in the mail today.
Yess..i pre ordered that jank.
But I get extra stuff like a
YUUUP!
Tee Shirt
and then later on i'm suppose to be getting a poster and some pictures of Trey but that's for another blog post.
But here is a list of some of my favorite songs off of the album.
And oh yeah..
GO OUT AND BUY THIS, ASAP.


2) Neighbors Know My Name
"Sometimes she call me Trey, sometimes she say Tremaine
when its all said and done but the neighbors know my name
sometimes she call me Trigga cause i make her body buss
he might think my name is "oh sh-", i make her cuss"

5) One Love
"Baby, here I am
I’m your man
I came with everything you needed
You and me undefeated,
Till the end of time
One mind, one heart, one love"

[[This dude got abs on his back..omg..]]

6) Does He Do It
"When you with him do you sometimes kinda wish it was us
posted up in the kitchen you teaching me how to cook
and it pop off on the counter and we make a lot of fuss"

7) Say Aah
"Aye, when I give you these keys homeboy
don't move my car man!
I ride in the front ya dig
Don't move my **** man
oh! oh baby what's your name"


10) Jupiter Love
"I think its time we take a trip to the bed
Gurl yo bodys' talkin and im lovin what she said
Don't you be a fraid to
Let me elevate you
Welcome you to suuuper.. duuuper..Jupiter Looove"

16) Holla If You Need Me
"Holla if you need me
You always gon’ be my boo
Holla if you need me
You know I still got chu
And if you ever need me to be
What you need girl, im free and foreva you can holla at me"

Ahh..i love this cd.
And the shirt is super comfy too.
Only bad thing about the album I guess is I think they sent out edited versions..=/
Like, I was singing along, getting ready to say the phone number part in LOL Smiley Face
and I hear silence..they bleeped out the little phone number..ugh.

Another Trey thing is me and Precious went to this concert thingy and Trey Songz was performing there..
Swear on everything he was looking directly at us.
=)

Like, every time his song comes on or he's on tv..I just start fanning myself.
Tremaine know what he be doing.
I know what all his tattoos mean..
I done heard every song he ever made..
I seriously just need to meet him and my life would be complete ya know..

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THROW AWAYSSS..